so?

so maybe i was a little irrational, and now i feel guilty. what if i was being selfish and in dropping some friends i abandoned people who actually needed me? that is making me just as bad as the people who suddenly decided they didnt want me in thier life.

maybe, the only real way to deal with this is to not let anyone beat me. i know that sounds conceded, but thats how i deal. i just out-do anything anyone has coming.

throw your worst at me, i won't cry in front of you. i won't cry at school. i might shed some tears in the privacy of my own home, but you will never know. i'm going to keep doing what i was doing, because i was happy. and who the hell were you to barge in on my happiness making all these irrational accusations and causing me to become paranoid of my own friends? i'll keep doing what i was doing, it was working just fine thank you.

i win.